You are mine, I have loved you!

I grew up in a very loving home. And I was used of hearing the words "you are mine" from my mama. So I have always just associated them with Love.
On the other hand not everyone has been as fortunate and those words strike a negative sense of ownership where someone who speaks them is only there to use them for his/her advantage. And that sounds familiar to most people than you can actually fathom.
While the words sound beautiful to me they may sound terrifying and come with a sense of unworthyness to some.
In time I grew up and went to university and I was in my second year, I was getting really lonely, it had been a while since I had seen my mama and just felt her love and it was a time in my life that I was truly angry at God. So all that, brought to the outcome of feeling unloved and just wanting someone to love me.
It's easy to say that "you could just love yourself".  But well it is not that simple, I loved myself all right. But as everyone else we are just created to give and receive love. So even if I love myself I will still need people to love me. It is engraved in our DNA even the soul mechanism. We just want people to love us. And if it weren't so we would have all been created in our own little island and wallllaaahhh! we would have enjoyed it. You can try the isolation trick and see if it works, it doesn't.  We are just wired to love and to be loved, created specifucally for relationships.
So cutting the lecture of Love short, I went searching for love in men. My dad died when I was ten years old, so I didn't have any male figure in my life, pretty much I was psychologically inclined to search for a loving father figure in men. And of cause at that point I had kinda ditched GOD (I know it's crazy but it happens to the best and worst of us). So going on from one guy to the next all I wanted to hear them say was "You are my girlfriend" and maybe hopefully transform to "you are my wife" in due 'short' time and both phrases would mean "YOU ARE MINE" and that to me would mean LOVE. And trust me it happened only once while I had been with countless or is it numerous people. And that it self didn't fulfil me, I was empty and sad and guilty and angry, I mean it was bad, and if bad is not a good enough word terrible might do. So I eventually left this amazing person who called me his and he only called me his girlfriend maybe because I insisted, in less than 100 days!
Fast forwarding 3 years laiter to today, as I am at the dinning hall at home having my breakfast and studying my bible (having food for the soul and body at the same time, quite fun you should try it) I bump into Isaiah 43. And guess what!? out of the amazing lines jumps 'THE' words I have always wanted to hear.

Isaiah 43:1.
YOU ARE MINE.

Honestly tears just started rolling down my eyes. In the past 3 years God himself had gotten me from being angry at him for one particular reason that he created me, to a place where I hear from him directly every minute and I dare say we talk like crazy. So as I just read those words, my breath stopped and I couldn't just believe it.

I am his. Ooooh my God, I am yours. Wooooooow!!. My inner self is dancing all the crazy moves.
When you come to the profound realisation of who GOD truly is and that he says you are his, like he is declaring that you and him have a relationship to the whole universe. Like damn what else would a girl need.
Going on to the next verse, I stop on my tracks right infront of the beautiful view of the most amazing words in Isaiah 43:3 saying "I have loved you ". Whhhhaaaaaaattttt!!!!!!!!

Please repeat with me. Because the LORD God himself, the creator of heaven and earth, the one who made the universe, the one who is almighty and ever powerful. He himself declares,

Isaiah 43:3
I HAVE LOVED YOU.

And that for me marks the end of my journey to find protection, love, provision and proclamation of Love from anyone else because I have truly found it on the one and only true God, Jesus Christ. The one who himself came from heaven, left everything to come pay for all and every of my sin. And to re-establish a perfect relationship between me and him. And that my dear reader and friend from a far away land, that my dear is LOVE.

I AM HIS!