Someday but not Today

"I want it now!"
My brain explains refutably, I breath heavily, how can I get it today? There is just no way. They say where there is persistence there is perseverance. They also say "penye nia, pana njia!"
So the conversation in my head goes on like this...
"Sasa kama siwezi kupata ile hela kwa kuchora ramani ya nyumba leo na kesho since najua clients hawana hela ya kulipa wiki hii, si kuna yule jamaa alikuwa akinitaka, if I go out with him, make him happy and ask for something sidhani kama ataninyima"......

Ooohw nooo!
I hear the Holy Ghost turning and tossing. I am born again and that should not be an option for I should resist sin to the point of death, Hebrews 12:4.
So I think and ponder. I consider praying and fasting since work won't give me what I want today and getting a sponsor should never have crossed my mind to begin with!
I am sitted on my bed, I decide to stand, you see they say you can praise God and things can start happening for you, remember the story of Paul and Silas, they sung and the gates of prison swung wide open.
And the word also says whatever I ask I shall receive as long as I believe. Faith can move mountains it sure can move this stone I want moved as of now, chaaa!!!!! it should have moved like yesternight.
I am growing impatient as I pace around my small 2 by1.5 meters carpet since that is nearly the only space left in my room with my pink bed on one corner, and my two dressers in the room, of cause with other stuffs laying all around.

I pace, one two, one two, one two. I am getting myself ready to praise God so he can give me what I want and yes don't say it out loud, I am trying to bribe him like the sponsor guy, sema He is God and He is up above and invisible.  Anyways, I pick up my phone and put on the song by Eben, "Victory"....
I got to get myself in faith mode ASAP!,

He has given me victory
Almighty God has given me victory
He has given me victory

All the days of my life I'll praise You
Everything that I have na You gave to me Baba
Lord I say for your Love I'm grateful
Jesu You love me plenty, you came to die for me

Jehovah Rapha Jehovah Nissi
I Am that I Am, The Great provider
I searched around, there's no one else like You
Lion of Judah: You're the mighty Man in battle

[Refrain:]
Aiyee! God has given me victory
Aiyee! He has given me victory
[Repeat]
Hallelujah eh (Halle) [Repeat]

I sing and dance, I am African, dancing is second to eating. And I get on my knees and pray.

Day 01.....

Day 02....

Nothing....

Day 03.... I should fast for 24 hours, God will answer me for sure.

Day 04......

Day 05.....

Someday and not today!!

Moral of my peril:
1. If God gives you what you want, will it give him the glory or stroke your ego?

You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
James 4:2‭-‬3 NIV

2. Are you patient enough to know that you don't have to get every thing you want now?

3. Does God giving you what you want benefit anyone else but you?

I have learnt to wait patiently on the Lord, and to be satsfied with all thay I have because he knows my needs and he has covered them perfectly well, Matthew 6:25-34.

This kinds of ordils happen now and then, but one word I tell my heart,

"Be still in the LORD and wait patiently for him, for he alone is my precious silver and most treasured Gold."
Psalms 27:14, Job 22:25

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